Sunny Saturday

I came home this afternoon and the house was empty.  The noisy neighbor was gone, the sun was shining and I felt...good, all was right with the world.

I found some sort of centered peace I've been waiting for and even my iPod was complying today - playing really great music just on shuffle.  So I took a moment and basked in that rare time in life where everything comes together for just a few seconds. Like the planets were aligned just for me just for a moment.

I cleaned the apartment, took out the trash, showered and made myself dinner. And then I waited. For what I'm not so sure. I feel like at times we're all supposed to listen. To ourselves, to something telling us about our next steps in life and how we're supposed to prepare. I always wonder if I missed my calling. Should I have been an artist, musician or maybe I'll always be a struggling writer. In any event, today for a brief moment, I felt recharged.  Here's hoping I can sustain it.

Who do you love?

Since all my hard news blogging efforts have moved over to my alternative blog (listed on the right hand column there) this is turning more personal for me.


Today I'm learning not to fight. I feel like I've been rushing through life "I can't shake your hand - I'm waiting for something very important to happen". I need to stop that. Each day is a step toward bettering myself and hopefully those around me. I need to realize that one day my hard work will pay off and I will not be in the same place forever. But for right now - I need to shake those hands. Be a better person, a bigger one and focus on what's in front of me just as much as what I want ahead of me...

I guess we'll see.