Quick update - more for me than you but it keeps me on track when I know that "people are reading this" even if it is just Google Analytics.
Positive thing - Dizzler rocks my world and I'm loving that I can grab any song off the net and listen to it right then. Right now my obsession is still Passion Pit especially their song "Little Secrets"
What I'm letting go: When I come into work to welcome a pile of paperwork, half of which is missing signatures in key areas...I am not angry - it was not my fault I cannot prevent everything. It feels good to not let things get to you. I can only do what I can to fix it.
We'll see how long this lasts... ;)
Monday, March 29, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Gay Girl Straight World: One Thing Every Day
According to Wikipedia (which in some cases is like saying according to my beagle) BUT according to Wikipedia:
Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy.A variety of biological, psychological, religious, and philosophical approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.Today I was ashamed. Everyday we read newspapers and articles, floods here, disaster there and I bitch about stuff that doesn't deserve to be bitched about.
Like the other day - when a co-worker tells me he believes in gay marriage, just not in gay's having kids, unless they want to adopt the "retarded ones" because they're desperate, I took a step back and got really irritated!
I've decided to make that reaction something of the past and renew some sort of inner whateverness. Last year I saw the Dalai Lama speak in person and I bought this quote which I have hanging at my desk. I vowed to read it everyday and keep myself centered. Clearly that didn't happen but I'm renewing it again and looking for one thing everyday to make me happy and one thing to let go of.
Today the happiness is sunshine and convincing a co-worker to grab lunch.
The irritation I let go of - well the things I can't control (which are many) but for today it's knowing that you can't please everyone.
And to close here's the quote I referenced above:
Every day, think as you wake up, today I am fortunate to have woken up, I am alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it, I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others, to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings, I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others, I am going to benefit others as much as I can.
H.H. the XIV Dalai LamaWhat makes you happy? And more importantly what do you need to let go?
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Gay Girl Straight World: Biden Drops the F Bomb
God I love Biden - what a trip!
I don't know how many of you decided to watch the historic signing of the Health care bill today but if you didn't you missed out!
Here's a quick recap: So I'm trying to be a good American, multitasking at my desk when a client comes over to me. Obama uttering his historic speech in the background I grab a file and hand it over. Then I hear it, it's unmistakable, unbelievable - the word THE most taboo, unforgivable word in the English language - FUCK.
Wait what? I clearly wasn't listening that well.
I wait for my adorable client to walk away and scale back. Did he really just say that? The Vice President, the second in command in the United States say the F-bomb?
In the words of one of Alaska's most notorious politicians "You Betcha!".
Don't believe me?
Check out the uncensored version just for you guys. Just make sure you turn up the volume.
Damn Gina - way to tell it like it is Joe!
I don't know how many of you decided to watch the historic signing of the Health care bill today but if you didn't you missed out!
Here's a quick recap: So I'm trying to be a good American, multitasking at my desk when a client comes over to me. Obama uttering his historic speech in the background I grab a file and hand it over. Then I hear it, it's unmistakable, unbelievable - the word THE most taboo, unforgivable word in the English language - FUCK.
Wait what? I clearly wasn't listening that well.
I wait for my adorable client to walk away and scale back. Did he really just say that? The Vice President, the second in command in the United States say the F-bomb?
In the words of one of Alaska's most notorious politicians "You Betcha!".
Don't believe me?
Check out the uncensored version just for you guys. Just make sure you turn up the volume.
Damn Gina - way to tell it like it is Joe!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
What makes you alive?: Post 13
We've all earned battle scars, some more than others. And after a ridiculously dumb move on the bike trail last weekend, I have some serious visible ones I hope heal soon. But all joking aside, in the turmoil of economic uncertainty this past year I've been asking myself:
How can I keep positive and more importantly feeling alive?
From toothpastefordinner.com
I've had a life plan since high school and I followed it up to the letter (please don't think I'm trying to be arrogant here):
Go to college and keep your head down [check]
Dean's List [check]
Well-known in my chosen program [check]
Great experience for Grad school resume [check]
Get in to your dream grad school [check]
Earn the degree you really want [check]
Get your dream job [Not so fast there Kiddo!]
My plan skidded in its tracks, and like most of us in our 20s, I found myself fervently trying to rewrite plans I engraved into my personal scroll at age 16. Failure, layoffs, accumulating student loan bills? This was NOT part of my plan. Ten years later I was not supposed to be commiserating with the puppets on Avenue Q - searching for my purpose. I was supposed to be on my way to building a successful career.
So what now!? Man what a valuable albeit painful lesson I've learned this past year. If I'd have to give it a name it'd be:
"The year everything you dreaded actually came true" Ok maybe I'm being a bit dramatic but that's what the past year was for me- and a lot of others too!
So how do you bounce back? I admit sometimes it's harder than others - but I've found thee key things that make that numbness go away pretty quick.
1. Don't limit yourself. There's no 9-5 requirement in life, so don't put yourself in a box. Find something that gets you excited and then get the motivation to do it. Sometimes looking forward to coming home to TV can be the biggest depressor out there.
2. Stop. I'm a huge perpetrator of this but I'm getting better. When you're overwhelmed, stressed and crippled with whatever- stop, go outside grab a coffee or a book and DEPROGRAM. What ever it is will be there when you get back. And you'll feel better in the long run.
3. Learn to love your surroundings. They may not be perfect but it can always get worse. Love where you are and find ways to make it better. Negativity gets you nowhere.
What makes you happy?
How can I keep positive and more importantly feeling alive?
I've had a life plan since high school and I followed it up to the letter (please don't think I'm trying to be arrogant here):
Go to college and keep your head down [check]
Dean's List [check]
Well-known in my chosen program [check]
Great experience for Grad school resume [check]
Get in to your dream grad school [check]
Earn the degree you really want [check]
Get your dream job [Not so fast there Kiddo!]
So what now!? Man what a valuable albeit painful lesson I've learned this past year. If I'd have to give it a name it'd be:
"The year everything you dreaded actually came true" Ok maybe I'm being a bit dramatic but that's what the past year was for me- and a lot of others too!
So how do you bounce back? I admit sometimes it's harder than others - but I've found thee key things that make that numbness go away pretty quick.
1. Don't limit yourself. There's no 9-5 requirement in life, so don't put yourself in a box. Find something that gets you excited and then get the motivation to do it. Sometimes looking forward to coming home to TV can be the biggest depressor out there.
2. Stop. I'm a huge perpetrator of this but I'm getting better. When you're overwhelmed, stressed and crippled with whatever- stop, go outside grab a coffee or a book and DEPROGRAM. What ever it is will be there when you get back. And you'll feel better in the long run.
3. Learn to love your surroundings. They may not be perfect but it can always get worse. Love where you are and find ways to make it better. Negativity gets you nowhere.
What makes you happy?
Monday, March 8, 2010
When is enough enough?
Passive aggressive behavior - I hate it. I hate the way it makes me feel whether I'm the receiver or the distributor and I'm working on being more forward and less of a wuss when it comes to confrontations. Ok let me just step off the soap box here...
And on to the real problem:
I feel like I'm facing the same battle over and over again. Like most people I love my parents. They're probably two of the most wonderful people on Earth. I would do anything for them and I'm sure they for me. But we keep running into the same wall and I wonder:
When is enough enough?
I'd say in the scheme of things religion is a significant part of my parents' lives, mine too to an extent, but they are certainly bible beaters. I'm all for religious freedom (obviously) and if you wholeheartedly believe that Leviticus is a straight-up proclamation from God himself that means homosexuality is wrong - I respect your opinion. We may not be friends, but I won't be ass to you about it - why bother?
HOWEVER - I do expect that you be upfront and honest if we respect each other at all. It's one thing to be a dick to people you don't know. Just think about the last time you gave that driver who swerved out in front of you the finger. But if you have an issue with me, and we're friends, or worse family - just come out and say what's on your mind.
So when the parents pull tricks like not inviting the gf to a family event, what's a girl to do?
Here's what I know. I know I theoretically changed the game - I came out, broke their hearts and ruined their chances of having normal grandchildren (seriously if you've met my brother you know they're screwed in that dept. Kidding...kind of).
Anyway I get it and I think I've been more than patient and understanding through the years. I've gone to plenty of events alone. I've listened to their incredibly anti-gay church sermons for holidays, and I've been very respectful in terms of who I come out to - for their sake and theirs alone. And playing the "roommate" card is getting old.
But five years later when planning a birthday party I'm told the reservation just includes me - well my patience only goes so far. So when is it time to put the foot down? Or worse when do you give the ultimatum? If ever? Clearly this calls for a serious discussion in terms of what is and isn't acceptable. I just never thought I'd have to teach MY parents about how to treat others. Anyone have suggestions?
And on to the real problem:
I feel like I'm facing the same battle over and over again. Like most people I love my parents. They're probably two of the most wonderful people on Earth. I would do anything for them and I'm sure they for me. But we keep running into the same wall and I wonder:
When is enough enough?
I'd say in the scheme of things religion is a significant part of my parents' lives, mine too to an extent, but they are certainly bible beaters. I'm all for religious freedom (obviously) and if you wholeheartedly believe that Leviticus is a straight-up proclamation from God himself that means homosexuality is wrong - I respect your opinion. We may not be friends, but I won't be ass to you about it - why bother?
HOWEVER - I do expect that you be upfront and honest if we respect each other at all. It's one thing to be a dick to people you don't know. Just think about the last time you gave that driver who swerved out in front of you the finger. But if you have an issue with me, and we're friends, or worse family - just come out and say what's on your mind.
So when the parents pull tricks like not inviting the gf to a family event, what's a girl to do?
Here's what I know. I know I theoretically changed the game - I came out, broke their hearts and ruined their chances of having normal grandchildren (seriously if you've met my brother you know they're screwed in that dept. Kidding...kind of).
Anyway I get it and I think I've been more than patient and understanding through the years. I've gone to plenty of events alone. I've listened to their incredibly anti-gay church sermons for holidays, and I've been very respectful in terms of who I come out to - for their sake and theirs alone. And playing the "roommate" card is getting old.
But five years later when planning a birthday party I'm told the reservation just includes me - well my patience only goes so far. So when is it time to put the foot down? Or worse when do you give the ultimatum? If ever? Clearly this calls for a serious discussion in terms of what is and isn't acceptable. I just never thought I'd have to teach MY parents about how to treat others. Anyone have suggestions?
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